Saturday, January 28, 2012

Thinking of St. Philomena

After reading "St. Philomena: The Wonder Worker," every thought and care I've asked her to join with me in prayer or pray for me.  Currently making a second novena of chaplets, trying to steer my life in the direction God gives me (soon, I hope) - I am thinking about going back to WWU for a master's degree.  Not sure in what yet, but it seems more hopeful than agonizing over retraining at the local tech college for having to pick out 'the perfect' area of study to get a job in.  I've tried more than three times to go there and WCC for career retraining, and it always flops.  After a long talk with my family, it seems pursuing a master's degree will open more doors.  I am very open to suggestions from anyone about what to take.

I began my novena, and I know it must have been the little saint, because someone clearly asked me when I asked for help to get some kind of funding to go to school - something to the effect of "Would you like someone to pay for your schooling?" - as if an anonymous donor would leap to the fore and come to my aid.  I immediately laughed and somewhat scoffed at the thought that this was even possible to be done for me, no matter how influential St. Philomena or the Virgin are, and I replied "No" - I wasn't exactly thinking along those lines.  And as suddenly as the voice had clearly spoken to me, I suddenly realized that I had turned down an offer that would not likely ever be repeated, and was disappointed in myself for doubting.  I still sit here and wonder if someone would ever do that for me.  The answer is likely no - the few that would haven't the money, and the fewer who could would do it in return of a favor from the saint.  How many graces go unreceived because we never even think to pray for them...especially the little things and I'm not talking money.

I made the teddy bear rosary I talked about a while ago, and posted it on my etsy shop last night.  Of all the encouragement I got, very few have taken the time to see it though I've posted on Facebook and Pinterest, and fewer have noted that they like it.  Yes, something of a disappointment to me.  I only charged the cost of the supplies plus what I normally charge for making a regular rosary.  Maybe $85 does seem a bit steep to most people.  I could just recoup my outlay and charge around $60, but the laborer is worthy of her hire.  I expected more of a reaction to say the least about that particular piece, but there's not as much interest as I thought.  Yes, disappointing.  Yet, there is so much to be thankful for - and all I can see is gloom.  God help me.

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